Thursday, December 23, 2010

Larger Than Life

I am thisclose to going completely nuts with the crazy news I get to read daily.  From last Tuesday's acquittal of Hubert Webb after languishing in jail for 15 years for rape and murder, to the release of the Morong 43 who were taken into AFP's custody as they were suspected to be NPAs (a charge they vehemently denied while in captivity, and then later admitting on national television that they really are indeed NPAs and not health workers as earlier reported), to Trillanes finally making it to the Senate (literally!), to Regine Velasquez wearing a flaming red gown and rocker boots on her wedding day.  

I have to admit, the news itself has become some sort of a telenovela that takes you to the edge of your seat, causing you to pathetically anticipate the next episodes, and wondering what on earth is going on in Pnoy's head?  Has his failed courtship with his socialite of a stylist affected his judgment so much that even jailed AFP comptroller Carlos Garcia who was charged, tried, and convicted of plunder has been recently set free with the promise that he will pay back the 303-million pesos he embezzled from the public coffers.  Last Saturday, he happily drove home to his equally guilty wife in posh Loyola Grand Villas in Katipunan.

Of course that's just me thinking.

So last night's news on our way home from work appealed to me like spoiled meat served on expensive china.  Until the anchors started talking about these two really interesting individuals.

The airport employee who returned the P1-million cash left behind by a passenger.

I forgot his name, but I will always remember what he said when they interviewed him after he handed over the money to its rightful owner.

Hindi kami pinalaki ng mga magulang namin na kunin ang hindi amin.  Hindi akin ang pera na yun, kaya isinoli ko.

The magulang he was referring to was his aged mother who, at the time he found the wealth, was suffering from ovarian cancer.  He could have provided his mother with the expensive medical assistance she so badly needed.  He could have easily bought the medicines that will help ease her pain.  But he did not.

The President sent him a signed shirt for his honesty.  He proudly raised the shirt for the cameras, by his mom's casket who finally succumbed to the disease a few days back.

Alam ko, nasan man ang nanay ko ngayon, tuwang tuwa sya at proud na proud sya sa amin.

I know too.

Aling Ludy

She is 73 years old and lives alone with her bed-ridden husband.  Her children already have their own families.

Sumumpa ako, sa Diyos, nang ikasal kami, na magsasama kami sa hirap at ginhawa.  Walang iwanan.  Kaya ako nandito, kinakaya ko ang lahat ng ito.  Hindi ako umaasa sa iba, ayoko ng ganun.  Ayoko na matawag akong inutil o walang silbi.  Hanggang kaya ko, maghahanap buhay ako para sa amin.  May mga anak ako, pero may sarili na silang pamilya.  Ayoko naman silang abalahin.  Hindi pa ako humingi ng tulong sa kahit na kanino, ngayon lang.

It turns out that her 40-year-old sewing machine, her only tool in making ends meet for her and her sick husband, has finally called it quits.  She wrote the news station and requested for a new one, as she is incapable of purchasing such an expensive equipment.

They surprised her with a brand new sewing machine!  The celebrated news anchor herself delivered it to Aling Ludy's home.  She was holding back tears as she watched the media people assemble her new tool right before her eyes.  She offered to take the measurements of the news anchor and promised to send her a dress that she will create herself.  Unlike celebrities and what-have-yous who tend to express their gratitude with queued tears and wise anecdotes, Aling Ludy's "thank you" was straightforward and sincere:

Sa inyong lahat na tumulong upang mabili ang hiniling kong makina, maraming maraming salamat mula sa kaibuturan ng aking puso.  Maraming, maraming salamat.

Ordinary people, yes.  But with really extraordinary traits.  Their stories make the nightly news worth watching.  They will not take you to the edge of your seats, or leave you seething with rage.  They cause you to see life from a more meaningful perspective, and believe that in all the chaos and confusion, lies and deceit that has become normal in our daily existence, there are still some who have chosen to take the straight and narrow path.  And although the rewards for being honest, faithful, and industrious  may not be lofty (a signed shirt, a sewing machine), we all know how priceless these people may be in the sight of the One who sees everything.  The ordinary, mundane ones.  They shine the brightest in a world darkened by pain, hate, greed, and lies.

I applaud you Aling Ludy and airport employee.  You are larger than life.



























Friday, December 10, 2010

Sir Art: Have A Hop-Hop-Hoppy Birthday


I chanced upon the videos of my former boss' birthday party ; today of all days when I am struggling to lift my spirits and feel the excitement of attending my first Christmas party with my new company.

It has been more than a year sinceI bid Bluebean goodbye, and the only person I was able to speak my heart out to before I left was Sir Art.  And now I realize that he will be turning a year older in a few days, and I so deeply want to wish him the happiest birthday he could ever have. 

He has become more like a friend to me than a boss.  There are just too many things that I learned and found odd about him than I could ever enumerate in this blog.  And at the rate I am going, I would probably be showing up at the party later with a bright red nose if I start recounting all the happy memories I shared with him and his family.

There are days when I would hear a silly song, read a grammatically-challenged line, see a long-forgotten 70's pinoy actor, a bald man, half-finished KFC chicken wings (even the clutter on my desk) and I would suddenly remember him and the smartass things that he is sure to say when he comes across these kinds of silly things.  And I would realize that I probably would never find another boss as cool, smart, at times insensitive but always willing to get you a cake to make up for whatever he said or did that made you cry as he was to me, to all of us.

Last year I caught him online on the eve of his birthday.  He said he was drinking tea by his lonesome, and not at all throwing a party like he used to do.  I greeted him a happy birthday, and he said "thanks thanks" (and this was at that time when I have already ceased reporting for work but have never really formalized my resignation).  He would always say thank you that way, "thanks thanks".

To you Sir Art, Happy Happy Happy Birthday! Thanks thanks for everything!!! 




Saturday, November 27, 2010

Your Life In Exchange for 650 Million Pesos. Deal? Or no deal?

As I write this, the entire country sits and patiently waits for the draw of the Grand Lotto 6/55 where one can become an instant half-a-billionaire; the pot is now at a ridiculously unbelievable amount of 650 million pesos.

All the Lotto outlets in all the malls that I've been frequenting for the last three weeks are never without long lines of people trying their luck, some even have sheets of numbered papers that they use to choose the number combinations.  It is fascinating to see people of all genders, sizes and shapes, come together for one common goal -- to get rich instantly.

It is even more interesting to find out (through the social networking sites that I maintain) that even the rich and famous celebrities are also agog over the pot of gold.  Ruffa Gutierez, in her tweet last Friday, sent her driver to look for a Lotto outlet in Makati.  She was near hysterics when they realized that there aren't any Lotto outlets in the area as I surmised through this tweet from the actress/beauty queen:  "We have dreams too, you know???" 

I'm sure you do, Ruffa.

I share in everyone's excitement to find out who will be the lucky instant millionaire.  Someone's life is about to change in a few hours and I can't wait to find out who that person will be.  What would you do when you suddenly become the rightful owner of over half a billion pesos?  What would I do?

I remember being asked this question two years ago.  I was contemplating on joining a TV game show where all you had to do was choose a briefcase and wish that you do not open the one with the jackpot in it.  My boss asked me what would I do with the 2million prize if I manage to avoid it after 23 briefcases.

I had no idea!  I was completely clueless.  I realized then that I was not prepared to own that amount of money.  And we were only talking about a couple million pesos then.  Multiply that 325 times and then ask yourself, what would I do with 650 million pesos?  Buy a town perhaps?


So I am thinking now, instead of focusing on the prize, why don't we focus on the race?  Is that not more important than coming up with the perfect number combination that just might change your life forever? 

With these in mind, I realized that I have never heard of anybody who won the lottery and went on
to live a "happily ever after" kind of life.  Although the lack of media coverage does not necessarily mean that they do not exist.  I suppose the stories of rags-to-riches-to-rags-again attract more viewers and sponsors than the former, so....

And it is true.  More than a handful lotto winners enjoyed their winnings for a maximum of 24 months (on the average) and then went back to become doubly poorer than they were before.  I remember one ex-winner who lived in a hotel for months on end, built rows and rows of apartments for leasing, put up a restaurant business, and bought everything that his wife and kids asked from him.  He was sharing his blessings to everyone that claimed to be his relative or friend, he took pity on people who came to his house and asked to be lent some money.  He was quick to trust and felt guilty when he tried saying "no" when asked for financial help.  

He could not fathom how, in a little less than two years, he finds himself and his family sharing a small shanty with his brother, with hardly a bowl of soup for breakfast.  He lamented on his fate.  To the point where he wished that he never won the lottery at all.  He was fine with his meager lifestyle before he became a millionaire.  What makes him more miserable now is the fact that he already knows how the good life tasted.  He was given everything he ever wanted and more, only to become the poorest man he has ever known in his life.

Could this be the result of unpreparedness for the fact that in case you do win the lottery, you also become a million times responsible for how the fortune affects your life?  If you receive a "windfall", do you remain standing, or do you get "blown out proportion" and you no longer realize what ever it was that hit you?

This leads me to believe that this could also be the reason the pot has not had a single winner even after a couple of draws.  There may not be anybody out there fit to own the prize.  And this may be a good thing for everyone.

This "responsibility" goes back to the body that is hosting the raffle.  After all, they are the ones who created this ferment.  I think that before they excite the public with the one in two million possibilities of becoming a multi-millionaire, they should set the minds of the people that owning such amount of money is not as easy as most of us would like to believe.  And that winning the prize, may also be as good as losing it... and more.

Who wouldn't want to live a happy and fulfilled life?  Of course all of us could use some money that can help us jumpstart our mediocre lifestyles.  There will always be something in amazon.com that we will want to buy but somehow, could never afford.  That if we only have a little more than what we already have, we will finally be happy and contented.  

Think of one person, except those born with a Reed and Barton in their mouths, that did not have to work hard to be able to live the life that he deems "happy and fulfilling".  

Manny Pacqiuao had to get himself beaten to a bloody pulp before he got Jinkee that nose (and a mansion in California, and wherever else there are mansions and estates for sale).

Henry Sy was a shoe shine boy before becoming the richest man in the Philippines, owning 33 branches of SM Malls and BDO-Equitable PCI Bank.

The owner of Jollibee, the Philippines' largest fastfood chain (the only one that gave McDonalds a run for their money) started out with just two ice cream parlors in Metro Manila.

Charice Pempengco and her mom hardly had enough to pay their rent before becoming the international singing sensation that she is now.

Regine Velasquez used to watch television through a neighbor's window as her parents' sari-sari store could not afford to get them their own TV set.

All of them are enjoying the fruits of their labors now.  And we all know that their fortune did not happen overnight.  

And neither will ours be.  

Like them, we will have to work hard for our dreams and desires.  We will have to shed blood, sweat, and tears.  And sometimes, even with all these, we will still feel that there is so much more that we want but could never have.  But when we finally reach out for our prize, we will be ready and able.  The beatings and humiliations and hardships that we encountered along the way, were all meant to prepare us for the responsibilities of being given more.  And we realize that what ever we have, no matter how big or small, is exactly what we deserve.

Another notable thing is the fact that when you worked hard for something, you see it for its value rather than for its price tag.  And so you take good care of it because you know that you earned it, rather than won it.  The sense of responsibility is stronger because you see your involvement in the realization of the dream, rather than the word LUCK written all over your properties.

If only we would realize how big a responsibility it is to have more money than you can spend, I am sure the lines at the lotto outlets will be so much shorter, and the media coverage a lot lesser.  


None of these are discussed in the promotion of the raffle draw.  There are no clauses that say: "with great powers come great responsibilities".  You are left to deal with hundreds of millions of pesos on your own...and all the people who claim to be your friend or relative.

I hope that who ever wins the pot, realizes that along with his wealth is the choice to either let it change his life forever, or not.  

Ironic as it may seem, the winner, will be needing a lot of grace. Period.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Ghost Stories, Anyone?

Everybody has a scary story to share, and what better time to reminisce urban legends and folklore of ghostly apparitions, doppelgangers, unexpected "visits" from departed loved ones, and what-have-yous than when Halloween is just around the corner.

In the Philippines, we don't collect candies on the eve of All Saints' Day.  We gather up in a dimly lit room and scare ourselves to screaming and sleepless nights with good old Pinoy "kwentuhan ng tungkol sa multo".

I am sharing to you some of these horror stories that I have collected while growing up. Some of these may not have very accurate details as these are recollections from as far back as when I was 6 years old.  (Fyi, I belong to that generation where parents actually allowed their kids to watch Nightmare on Elm Street and Halloween without adult supervision.  We're made of tough stuff.)


Ashes to Ashes...

My Tito Fred would always tell us about an Aunt that we never met who died in a road mishap while she and her daughter (probably, my second cousin) were visiting relatives in a nearby town.  The bus that they were riding either fell into a ravine and burned/ collided with another bus then burned (I am not so sure now, I was only about 6 when I heard this story).  Anyway, the bus burned and it took two days before their families were informed of the incident because the bodies were hardly recognizable after they have been taken out of the burned bus.

Before the family heard about what happened, some household members have been noticing fingerprints on the mirror that is mounted in my Aunt's aparador.  You know those movable wood cabinets that was very popular in the provinces back then?  Most of those have full length mirrors attached on its doors. 

Apparently, the fingerprints started becoming more prominent until it looked like two pairs of hands of people trying to climb out of something.  The mirror started looking really dirty with the alikabok and the hand prints outlined on the surface of the mirror.  They tried to wipe it off with wet cloth, wet newspaper but to no avail.  The hand prints disappeared only after the family got the sad news that the mother and daughter who traveled two days ago died in that ill-fated bus.

The Peeping Tom

Back in 2007, my mom rented a huge house in San Fernando, La Union before my Lola came home from the U.S. It was one of the most beautiful (next to our own house of course), spacious, and functional homes I have ever been to.  I thought it was rather too big for my mom, my Tita, and my Lola but we didn't mind.  My mom thought it was a bargain with all the furniture and appliances included in the rent.  We only needed to transfer our clothes, all else were provided for.

The neighborhood was also a far cry from the ones that we had in Sevilla.  Most of the people in this area kept to themselves and minded their own businesses.  Everything looked alright, we were satisfied.

Until one unexpected night, when our next door neighbor came banging on our gate demanding to see my mom.  He asked if we had a male companion in the house.

May anak akong lalake pero nasa office sya ngayon, bakit ba? Asked my mom.

Eh sinisilipan ng kasama nyo yung kasama naming babae dito sa bahay eh!

Kelan? Hindi gagawin ng anak ko yun! Sigurado ka ba sa sinasabi mo?

Oho! Naliligo yung kaibigan namin eh, pag tingala nya sa bintana, may lalakeng nakatayo dyan sa may bintana nyo, nakatingin sa kanya!  Ngayon lang ho!

Sigurado ka ba? Wala kaming kasamang lalake dito ngayon. Kami lang ng pinsan ko.

Naka puting polo po yung lalake, nakadungaw sa bintana nyo. 
The area that the neighbor was referring to was our dining room; true, there is a window in that room that looks directly down to our neighbor's house. 

Question is, who is that man looking down at our neighbor's bathroom?

The Lady In The Mango Tree

We would always know that summer has arrived when the fruits of the huge mango tree at the back of our house in La Union start falling on our roof.  These would make splattering noises as they fall on the hard ground.  The collective smell of these smashed fruits would be something like that of vinegar and honey combined.  It is a smell that I continue to look for up until this time.

Our visitors and guests would always notice that tree sitting in our backyard. Some of them would unabashedly ask for fruits, others would want to know what variety it yields, and some would ask if we would consider bringing the tree down for reasons we found too spooky for us.

We had a visitor who actually said that there was a lady living in that tree.  She said that the lady liked it there because it was cool, and that we were nice house owners because we weren't rowdy. 

We were never affected by these stories.  Although we noticed that quite a handful of visitors would randomly ask us, May kasama pa pala kayo bukod sa mga bata?

My parents would say, Wala, kami kami lang dito.  Matagal na kaming hindi nagm-maid para matuto ang mga bata sa bahay.

Hinde, may nakatayo dito kanina nung dumating ako eh. Babae, naka stripes, mahaba ang buhok.  Akala ko nga katulong nyo eh.

We would just smile and shrug it off.  This is our house and no one gets scared of his own house.

Until one afternoon, during the height of the impeachment trial of Estrada; my parents and I were watching news and were focused on the television that was positioned on the far end of the living room.  We were seated at the opposite side so that we were facing the window that looked out to the mango tree and our backyard.  Our peripheral visions point to our dining room that opens to our backyard with huge sliding wooden doors.

Out of nowhere, a white figure coming from the backyard came running through the open doors, straight into the dining room, to our kitchen.  All of us saw it but no one made a comment.  Apparently, all of us thought it was one of my siblings coming home from school or work.

Alas, my dad asked me to check if my sister has started the rice cooker as it was starting to get dark.  I rose to check the kitchen, although at the back of my mind, I was thinking that if it were my sister who came in earlier, why didn't she come out to the living room to greet us?

Before I even got to the end of my thought, I realized that the kitchen was as dry as a leaf, and the rice cooker unplugged.  I went back out to the living room to find both my parents' faces ashen with the realization that it was still just the three of us in the house!

But you saw the white figure running to the kitchen, didn't you?? My dad demanded from us.  My mom and I nodded in agreement.  But none of us can figure out who or what that white figure was.

There was also one afternoon when my dad was cleaning our backyard.  He picked an old rag and "cleaned" it by whipping it against the trunk of the tree.  He was "dusting it off", that's what he said.  After his chores, he came inside the house and took off his dirty shirt. When he looked in the mirror, he was surprised to see a rather curious bruise on his tummy.  It was black and blue and looked like someone pinched him hard in that area.  He could not remember how he got it, but he knew it wasn't there before he went out to the backyard to clean.


Wedding Photographs

This is one story that I will never forget.

I have a Lola whose had two of her daughters die because of difficulty in giving birth to their children.  The last daughter died shortly after asking her sister to please take care of her children.

On the same year, that sister got married.  There is a local belief, other than the now famous sukob, that kins are not supposed to engage in merry activities until after the first death anniversary of their departed loved ones.

They were all aware of these sayings, but the sister continued with her plans of getting married anyway.

The wedding went smoothly and everyone was happy.  There were lots of pictures taken from the church to the reception, especially while they were opening their gifts.

It was to everybody's horrid surprise when one of the photos developed showed the figure of the bride's sister who died that year.  Her figure resembled that of the last time they saw her in her casket, arms folded on her belly, eyes closed, and lips held tight.

I have yet to muster the courage to see the photograph for myself.




  
Did I Just See... Me?


Do you believe in doppelgangers?  Or that type of "ghost" that imitates someone you know and fools you into believing that you actually saw and talked to the person they are "imitating"?  Here is one story that is sure to bring chills down your spine.


After similar incidences of unseen peeping toms and uninvited guests, my mom decided to find a new place to stay.  As luck would have it, she found out that the duplex apartment we have been eyeing turned out to be up for rent.  In less than a week's time, she, my brother, and my mom's aunt moved into the new house.


This was much smaller than the haunted one on the hill.  It was much cooler too as it sits right by a field of rice and vegetables.  This time, we hardly had any neighbors except for the couple that lived next door.


My mom and her aunt (my Lola) were left in the house for most of the day, especially when my brother is at work.  My brother would come home for lunch or a quick nap every now and then, but most of the time, it's just the two ladies and our pets.


One afternoon, as expected, my brother came home.  Or so my Lola thought. 


He knocked on the door and asked to be let in.  My Lola saw him through the screen door which she immediately opened.  She asked my brother if he had eaten yet but did not really wait for his response as she was on her way to the washroom herself.  She just made sure to lock the screen door again and hurried to the bathroom.


Not long after my Lola has been inside the bathroom did my mom hear someone calling for my brother's name.  She checked and saw one of my brother's friends dropping by to return a jacket he borrowed from him.  My Lola emerged from the bathroom and offered to call my brother whom she knew to already be in the house.

She went upstairs calling my brother's name.  He wasn't there.


She came back down and told my mom to tell on my brother.  That next time he leaves the house, he should at least let my Lola know.


Bakit? Dumating na ba sya? My mom asked.


Aba oo! Pinagbuksan ko pa nga ng pinto. Tinanong ko pa nga kung kumain na sya eh. Hindi ko lang naharap ipaghain dahil magbabanyo ako. 


My mom sensing the strangeness of the situation immediately called my brother to find out where he was.


Nandito ako sa school.


Eh bakit hindi ka man lang nagpaalam sa Lola mo bago ka umalis?  Umalis ka na lang bigla.


Ha? Kaninang umaga pa ako umalis, nagpaalam naman ako ah. Nagpaalam din ako sayo.


Hindi ba kagagaling mo lang dito ngayon?


Hindi po. Maghapon ako dito sa school.  Hindi ako makakauwi dahil marami kaming ginagawa.  Mamayang gabi na uwi ko.


My Lola was nearly hysterical in insisting that she saw my brother and she let him in.  

We believe her.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Uhhh... Work?

I almost lost it when a co-worker (actually subordinate, but I was never a fan of the boss-subordinate thing so let me call her my co-worker) "advised" me that she will not be able to make it to work AGAIN for two days next week.  Because she will be attending a baptism and a family reunion on days when she is supposed to be working.

It would not have been difficult to see through the obvious neglect of responsibilities if it were not her NTH time to ask for permission to miss days of work!  She has incurred more absences than me and my boss combined, and she has only been with the company for barely three months!!!  And she was telling me this (actually she texted me) after being absent for two days this week because of some family emergency, and for three days last week because apparently she was sick.

When I texted her back and told her that she is needed at the office, she replied,

"So you mean I can't attend the baptism and the reunion? :-("

When she told me she couldn't report for work because she gets high fever every night, I asked her who would cover for her while she's away.  She replied:

"My doctor advised me to take a rest, do you need anything from me?"

Uhhh.. THAT YOU WORK LIKE EVERYONE ELSE????!!!!

This coming from a person who named her price before even submitting her resume to our HR, and demanded that she only work 5 days per week, and that every Friday, she be allowed to leave one hour earlier because she is currently attending classes for WORK-LIFE BALANCE.

You have got to be kidding me lady!!!  

Call me a monster or a slave-driver, but I will not tolerate such inconsideration of one's responsibilities.  It is just not right to abandon your assignments or leave your duties for someone else to cover for you, thinking that you are "entitled" to these bland absences just because you have leave privileges.  It is just not right.

And it is sad that there are people like her, who would have had so much potential to influence others positively or help the company increase its bottom-lines, if they would just have the maturity to take on responsibilities.  They see their jobs as just...jobs.  Something that they can easily take for granted because they feel that they can always find another should they lose the ones they have now.  And when they do find a new assignment, they will apply the same method of being at the work place only when they feel like it.  And lose that job again.

Maybe they don't need the money as much as I do.  Or maybe they have what it takes to transfer from one company to another because of connections or Ivy League education.  Or maybe they are just plain lazy.  I will never understand.

All I know is that these kinds of people are no more than glorified bums who think that the world owes them their time and effort to work and be useful members of the society.  And it will take more than a year's perfect attendance under their names before I start taking them seriously.

I do not hold the world's record on Employee Who Was Never Absent.  I've had my share of emergencies and family obligations and I had to ask for time off from work to be with the people who need me more.  But I never abandoned my responsibilities.  I don't feel right when I know someone else is doing my job for me.  I don't think it is fair that my company pay me for days I spent for my personal affairs when I should be working on my desk. 

Once I was training a class of about 25 to 27 call center agents when I had one of my worst migraine attacks.  I could barely see two feet ahead of me and I knew I needed to be taken to the hospital right away.  I dismissed my class for lunch and asked them to be back after an hour.  I asked a colleague to drive me to the hospital.

I was nauseated and throwing up when we got in the emergency room.  I was led to a stretcher while a doctor administered pain killers straight to my veins.  I dozed off immediately.

After 20 minutes, I woke up to find our HR beside my bed asking how I was.  She said she has made arrangements to get me a room so I can stay overnight and be observed further by the doctors.  I sat up and realized that the pain is gone.  I tested my vision, everything is back to normal.

I asked the doctor to kindly remove the needles attached to my hand.  I wanted to go back to work.  They made me sign a waiver, removed the needles, and let me go.

Before my class was back from lunch break, I was already in the training room waiting for them. 

No one in the office, except our HR and the trainer who drove me to the hospital, knew what I had to go through.  No one had to know.  I went back to work not because I wanted to be heralded as a martyr, but because I knew no one else can do my job for me.  I didn't want anybody doing my job for me.

I hope someday, this co-worker would realize the value of having a job is just as important as anything else that she can probably think of as reasons not to report for work.  I hope that she finds a job that she will love and respect, just as much as she would want to be respected as an individual (because right now, I only see her as a glorified bum).  And that she would see beyond the assignments, and realize that she has RESPONSIBILITIES that she has to carry out.

Until then, she needs grace.  Period. 

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Excerpt from Ayn Rand's The Fountainhead

There will be days when you'll look at your hands and you'll want to take something and smash every bone in them, because they'll be taunting you with what they could do, if you found a chance for them to do it, and you can't find that chance, and you can't bear your living body because it has failed those hands somewhere.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Finally, fresh air!


Not really sure how to "describe" this blog.  The title occurred to me at random; I am sure it holds a deeper meaning in my subconscious, only I can't summon it out right now.  

I am going public with my thoughts, and this is the first time I am ever going to do this.  Well, there's Facebook of course, but it is more of a "competition"of thoughts there rather than "sharing" of ideas.  I would like to support the latter. Everyone is welcome to "share" here.

Contrary to my blog's title, I will try to avoid turning this into an "emotional" sounding board.  I am not an artist, and I could not draw a "sunny sun" if my life depended on it so you can also forget about arts and crafts and anything colorful to be found in this corner.  Whatever pictures you will see here will either be taken from my old Canon instamatic digicam, or extracted from the web (don't worry I will ALWAYS acknowledge the owners).

This site will be dedicated to straightforwardness, saying things the way they ought to be said. I will probably annoy a lot of people in the process.  Or will have to apologize at some point.  

Or I might end up just writing for my own gratification without anybody reading after me.

Either way, I will still write. 

Period.